Abortion Haunts: Rapper Nicki Minaj Speaks About Her Experience

By Timothy Yap Jan 01, 2015 01:34 AM EST

Rapper Nicki Minaj has alluded to her own abortion in her new song "All Things Go." The song is taken from her recent #1 new album "Pinkprint." Minaj admits that she was with child sixteen years ago with a man named Aaron.

With "Rolling Stone" magzine, Minaj said that when she had her abortion she thought she "was going to die."

"I was a teenager. It was the hardest thing I'd ever gone through," she continued. Minaj became pregnant when dating her first love, an older guy from Queens, N.Y., while attending Manhattan's LaGuardia High School.

The decision to abort has "haunted me all my life," but she stands behind her decision: "It'd be contradictory if I said I wasn't pro-choice. I wasn't ready. I didn't have anything to offer a child."

Minaj has also touched on the same issue on an earlier song "Autobiography." In the third verse of "Autobiography," she alludes to people telling her she wasn't ready to have a baby, and asks for her unborn child's forgiveness:

"Please, baby, forgive me, mommy was young/ Mommy was too busy, trying' to have fun/ Now I don't pat myself on the back, for sending you back/ 'Cause God knows, I was better than that... Listened to people who told me I wasn't ready for you/ But how the f--- would they know what I was ready to do?"